This has been one heck of an adventure, with family, friends and more importantly each other we are making it day by day!
Thank you Stanislav Kalyuzhny for being the best friend, companion and father that I could ever ask for.

Jaciel is here! Pictures.

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Posting Pictures and Video's

I just posted a bunch of new pictures and video's on Facebook. I can't believe how much she has grown compared to the video's and pictures to now. Look....

Tiny, compared to sitting up and being more alert and talkative then ever.
Look at this Video, its my favorite.

Its just too cute. She is, just so amazing. Today in the car she sat in her snug car-seat and proceeded to tell me just how tired she was. Not with cries and of course not with actual words but with ever conversational coo possible. Her facial expressions are that of an adult. So contemplative and intense. I've been told that is a sign that she is going to be a bright one. I wouldn't doubt it. Not because, or at least not just because she is my child but no baby looks like they are trying to figure out the weight of the world like she does with that face. Its almost, weird. Yet I love it. Hell maybe she will be your everyday typical person with nothing intellectually special about her, but she will be special due to that unique personality. Or maybe she will be a genius, unlike her humble parents. *SHRUG* who knows. Yet right now looking at how expressive she can be already I know for a fact I am going to have my hands full as she grows. I can see the teenage issues already LOL. - I am looking forward to every minute of it, and every second leading up to it. - I love my baby girl so much and her Papa loves her even more. Which I love that he loves her the way he does. Its amazing. This is how its suppose to be.

Monday, May 2, 2011


...how many times has he died.... my daughter still isn't safe. One terrorist dead. good! Sadly I don't think it will stop things... I just want for peaceful times. Which in times where money is more vital then wealth then times won't improve.

Late Night

.... yeah so diapers had to be done. However that isn't what made my late night.
I want to help a friend. She is going through tough times. I understand those times more then she can even imagine. Its different but its hard. The emotions are the same, angry, hurt, apologetic, confused. Then wondering why apologetic even comes into play. Its just so much. Its.... life. Nothing is easy. My life isn't totaly perfect but no ones is. This is as happy as I've ever been. My daughter is a great deal of it. However I have something else. We have our issues. MAJOR ones but its nothing that can't be compromised with time. I am willing to wait. I am willing to try. I have what I want and need. Compromise isn't too hard to do..... I am picky and I will be as I look at him. He has asked many times. Will I agree?